Dear bestfriend, I miss you so much. I miss our friendship, being there for each other, having each other's backs, non stop talking, taking pictures together, netball games, comforting each other, sharing problems and secrets, telling jokes. You are the one who always lend an ear to hear all my stories even though it is bored and annoying, lend your shoulder for me to cry on.
Just because we dont talk anymore, doesnt mean that I've forgotten about you, doesnt mean that I no longer care. Truth is, I still do. I do my best to check up on you, to see how you're doing, to see if you're okay. But everytime I get the urge to talk to you, it suddenly hits me. I really wanna talk to you but I'm afraid that you will not say anything back.
Remember the times when we were always together? When you made me happy? When you comfort and pampered me all the time? When you said 'you cannot cry if Im not there beside you farah please dont cry'. When you said 'anything for my little princess'. Yeah, I miss that a lot, Atasya. It really hurts me, you know. I've been crying hard for that.
I dont think I have ever missed my friend this much before. It like physically hurts me not to talk to my bestfriend. I just want to hug her and tell her every single thing and I dont want to fight to her or her to fight with me over silly things. I really wanna fix everything but it seems like you really dont have the efforts to be friends with me again. But for the sake of our friendship, I will try to lower down my ego.
Im tired of pretending like everything is okay, you pass by me in school, you dont look at me, I pretend I dont see you and walk away but deep inside its killing me. Every time I saw you alone, I cant hold myself and let the tears fall down my cheeks. I just want you back, I want to talk about it with you and cry and sob and hug you until I'm no longer crying. I feel so empty and alone since the day you stopped talking to me.
Im sorry for everything. For what I've done. We are still friends right? I havent lose you right? Dont hesitate to talk to me okay? Because half of the time, I wish that you were talking to me. I always pray to God that things get better and you come back. I do miss my best friend. I miss you, Atasya Iffah.
Love,
Best friend, FNMXO.POSTED BY FNMXO ON Sunday, 2 March 2014 @ 20:33
